thinking...

when I was  11 years old one of the best people in the world died.  He was 24 and had  fought childhood leukemia for half of his life.  Last year it occurred to me that this year I would officially outlive him.  At the time it was a scary proposition because I didn't know what might happen in the next several years, it should be noted that I still do not know what's going to happen but I have support now where before I felt scared for the most part  alone. I no longer fear the next 25 years because it's hard to fear something when you have the kind of  caring that is in my life now. granted a lot people would not understand it but that's okay they don't have to its  my life  and no one is to answer for it but me.the only way I could have disappointed my friend is to give up on myself.  Because  of Master's strength and caring don't  have to be afraid.  I know he cares for me and that is all I need from this world.  With that I can do anything .  I am through giving up on myself.
On bended knee,
Silvwe